You know magic is on the way when the light starts to fade. It's from the darkness, miracles grow. Sit tight...it will come.
Acting out of the ordinary isn't necessarily unheard of for me; however, ever since our lives have become a little bit...um, different, my decision-making has rocketed to a whole new level. Please tell me yours has too? Perhaps you're thinking things you wouldn't normally think? Saying things you wouldn't normally say or even buying things you wouldn't normally buy? Last week, I stocked up on essentials and essentials only...paper plates, googly eyes, giant rainbow feathers, turquoise hair dye, two pairs of dangly earrings and a cross-stitch llama. I haven't got a clue how to cross-stitch and I haven't worn earrings since my wedding day, nearly ten years ago. Nevertheless, I have worn the earrings for the past two days - they look awesome with my pyjamas - and every time I catch a glimpse, a massive smile spreads across my face. See, there's always a silver lining.
It's not only a shift in my erratic shopping habits (I wont even mention all the crystals crucial for surviving an apocalypse), my thoughts have become a bit bonkers too. Last night, I was convinced my husband had hoodwinked our eighteen-month-old to conspire against me by turning our bedtime routine into something that closely resembled a boxing match with a dancing octopus. I actually believed that they had concocted this evil plan for no other reason but to make my life a living nightmare...
The good news...it's not our fault! It is completely normal and a definite justification for the sudden, rapid decline in our bank balance, shouting at a loved one for breathing too heavily or for commenting on that post on social media - when you should have just scrolled past - because every Tom, Dick and Harry suddenly has a PHD in medicine.
Maybe you have found yourself staying up until stupid-o'clock, registering for 'Learn Japanese in just a month' or simply googling what wonderful things you can now make with your brand-new stash of coloured pompoms and pipe cleaners. Or frankly, you have no energy, everything just seems a bit too much and you feel the urge to hide away far from everyone and everything. I can imagine we are all feeling rather 'out of sorts' right now. That is okay.
Guess what...it's not your fault; its all down to our amazing brain.
When life is calm - ie, when our lives don't reflect the latest Hollywood disaster film - a part of your brain called the Prefrontal Cortex, AKA the owl brain, is in the driver's seat, making all the decisions, doing all the thinking and solving all the problems; its a pretty clever part of the brain. Some would say it's like a wise, old owl.
However, there is another part of the brain. This is the part that is responsible for everyone stocking up on a ten-year-stash of toilet roll. It is called the amygdala, AKA the meerkat brain. Like a meerkat, it is always on the lookout for danger and is ready to let us know when it arrives - a bit like your internal alarm system. So when you feel scared or threatened, your owl flies away, your meerkat takes the drivers seat and a rush of chemicals flood through your body, preparing you for fight or flight. Unfortunately, this part of your brain is still living in cave-man times when the threat would have wanted to eat you - a bear perchance. Because of this, the amygdala just sees bears everywhere. A bit like when I'm hungry, all I see is cake...
See...it's not your fault your owl flew away, removing the ability to think, and was replaced by a meerkat who cannot distinguish between a bear or a virus.
At least with a bear, you could use all that energy created from the surge of chemicals to run away from it. But with this virus, we are being asked to do the exact opposite when our meerkat is on his hind legs yelling...
There is however, more GOOD NEWS... our meerkats are easily tamed...
Sunshine and Serenity